Aurora Dimitre's Books and Rambling

I'm about a centimetre away from breaking. It's the last day of the month, so I got to buy my books for the month (four this month! hell yeah), so that's extended a little bit. But the thing is-- The thing is , with this situation, I'm missing going into a used bookstore and just purchasing up every fucking thing, you know? Like just filling my arms and going to town , man, like grabbing whatever looks good and saying whatever, you know? In this situation I get to pick out like, a couple of books off of ThriftBooks and that's it . The Wall is at 922--down from 964. That's almost fifty books down, which is kinda cool. That is also not counting the books that I've gotta haul at some point, because I have not hauled them and thus they are not technically in the Wall yet so they're in some weird fucking book limbo, you know? I want to buy books. But. I cannot.

Apart from my tentative sketches of a self-publishing future, I don't keep set plans. I like to say this is new, but it's really not--I started college going for an English degree with no real idea of what I was going to do with it. I thought, 'well, maybe I'll go to grad school', and then I met people who were going to be going to grad school and I thought, 'never mind.' Even when I went to college--the college I went to, I went to because I'd already started taking classes there as a high school and figured, well, why not? Beforehand I was planning on going to college in the town I live in now... but that was just because I'd gone to BAIT (Business And Information Technology) camp there a couple of summers. I figured, hell, why not? The reason I live here now is because I wanted to move out when I graduated college. The reason I quit the library is because I didn't want to be in that town anymore. The reason I quit dispatch is because... we...

I self-published a book in March, I never shut up about it, yadda yadda yadda, we know this-- I'm planning on continuing, two a year, yadda yadda yadda, we know this-- So yesterday I started playing around with formatting on my book I'm putting out next April. I'm strictly using Microsoft Word here, so like, it's not gonna be fancy, don't get me wrong. It's never going to be fancy. But I'm playing around with things like chapter headings, things like page numbers, things like that. And it was kind of fun, not going to lie--when I put out Iscariot  it was very spur-of-the-moment. And that's how I operate, most of the time. I am not a think-things-through kind of person. The most I did for Iscariot was making sure that each chapter started on its own page, and I slapped a cover together in about ten minutes in Amazon's cover creator. This was something that I decided I wanted to do one night when I had a night off of work--and it turned out all rig...